the bribe

I am not at my best condition. I screwed up, and when I tried to fix it, things got nasty pretty quick and out of control. I must admit I held grudge toward some people who made things difficult for me. Yet in the end I chose to forgive. Not because I was so kind-hearted or because their faults were trivial. It's because God told me to forgive. The thing is, I want God to allow me one chance. Getting out of this trouble is so important to me, I don't care what it takes. If I can kinda bribe Him by forgiving others, so be it.

You hear me, God (and my readers). Put me in a powerful position, it's okay. I won't revenge those people. Please help me.